Yesterday I was personally and professionally down in the dumps. I began the day wallowing in self doubt, wondering whether what I was doing made a difference. Like REALLY made a difference. Did I make the right decision in leaving Johnson & Johnson when I was on Mat leave with my first eight years ago? I mean it is not like I had even TRIED to balance both big career and babes.

And then I read this article http://nyti.ms/14t2xS1. And I felt even worse. Was I one of these women that had opted out and now wanted back in the boardroom? I called my husband (who was busy at work) and vented to him while he half hearedly through in the occasional uh huh and hmm to show he was half listening. Who could blame him? He has heard this tyrad a million times before. 

And then I did something new. I meditated (in my version of trying to concentrate on breath while my mind slowed down to 3/4 speed). And here is what I heard. I am a hopeless Professional Romantic. I love where I am and what I am doing but part of me always wonders if the grass is greener somewhere else. Corporate Moms day dream about being home with the kids, Stay at Home moms think about getting dressed up and going back into the office, Mom entrepreneurs dream about having regular CASH FLOW and being able to shut it off at 5pm.

The thing is I really don't think any one choice is better than another- we do the best we can in making decisions at THAT TIME. Any at any point in time we can CHANGE OUR MIND (GASP!).

The article for me was so-so. What I found more enlightening were the comments. The stories. The points of view. And that is what momcafé is all about for me and so I continue.